Having recently completed my Reiki Master training, I have encountered (and will continue to encounter) many spiritual and personal ‘tests’. Oh, life. You never cease to amaze me. 

Today I was in my home and heard a commotion outside the front door. I thought it was someone yelling at their cat. I quickly realized that it was actually my neigbour who was crying and bleeding and needed an ambulance. 

Ack! Major Stress Ball 2014. 

I called the ambulance, giving as many details as I could (which were very few). They were on the way. “Should the situation change, call back and inform us.” Ok. Got it.

I checked on my neighbour; she seemed to be ok as someone was with her but there was an awful lot of blood. Everywhere. Ack! 

Knowing more about my neighbour and her situation, I called 911 again to update them. As they’d asked me to. Cool. 

And then I stood there. Not knowing what to do. Staring outside watching for the ambulance for a person I don’t even really know for a reason I also don’t quite know. Feeling like I just wanted to start bawling because did you know, there was blood everywhere? And she was crying? And she was clearly…hurt…in some way..? And I’m just standing here and whatamisupposedtodonow?

Then I remembered Reiki. And I panicked, because I hadn’t done Reiki yet and I should have. I quickly threw a few Reiki symbols towards my neigbours door but I just couldn’t get in the Reiki groove. It wouldn’t flow.

Well no wonder! I was in stress overwhelm-mental-freeze fight or flight. We’re not really supposed to know how to do a lot of things at that time. We’re supposed to…y’know, fight or fly. Now how’s that for living in the moment?

I listened as the paramedics talked with her and wheeled her away on a stretcher. It was ok. She was ok. It’s going to be ok.

And I still couldn’t give Reiki. It just wouldn’t flow. Come on Reiki, where are you when I need you most?

A-ha. That’s it. I forgot about Reiki because I don’t need to think about or remember it; it’s with me no matter what. Each thought, each movement, each idea, each emotion. Every moment of every day. I may forget it’s there, but it’s never not there.

When I forget about Reiki, when I react to my body’s stress response and freak out and lose sight of my connection to spirit, it’s ok. Reiki is still with me. It has not left me, I do not have to seek it. I just have to allow it.

Today, there was nothing more for me to do than what I did.
I did it. The right thing. 

And each step – checking on my neighbour, calling the ambulance, calling them back, checking on her again – was touched by Reiki because it’s with me even when I forget about it. How great is that?

It’s pretty great. Each moment is an opportunity for me to embrace Reiki. Even in the most anxious panicky can’tbelievethisishappening moments, there it is – Reiki. Even when I don’t feel it, when I don’t call on it, when I don’t do all the special little things I like to do when I do Reiki, it’s always with me working to the highest good and for the highest good. Amazing, right?  

Yep. It really is. Thank you life. 

p.s. My neighbour is fine. She fell and hit her nose, but nothing is broken and she is feeling ok. Just one of those things, I guess.